Poker faced and calm
Sullen on the outside
Volatile ballooning underbelly
Like a cartoon I am
Comically crimson
See these eyes go dark ears spewing coal ash
Yeah the circus was beautiful
Bread so fleeting
Isn't there a coup d'e`tat booked today
sometime after brunch

Meet the Jordan of self loathing
Here I am buzzer beater
Bruising my own ego
Where did I go wrong
I was never right
The pressure rising higher
Than previously recorded
But there I was

Surviving a panic attack - comforted
By a store room window
Salesman
Snatch this up…only costs a buck
Someone wore the shine right off of this one
Feel the wood grain she breathes
A kingdom with her keys
Can you hear the jangle resonating
In a version of yourself
Infinite
Versions of yourself
In a fancy new case

Meet the Jordan of self loathing
Here I am buzzer beater
Bruising my own ego
Where did I go wrong
I was never right
The pressure rising higher
Than previously recorded
But there I was

There I was I could barely breathe
There I was now what's left of me
There I was underdeveloped in a ventilator
Was my future stolen from me
Look left
Look right
Everyone around you is surviving a fight
But who are we to know it?
I am no sideline announcer

Oh look at us go all our four left feet
Our hands our eyes may never meet
Clumsy as a jailbreak
Jealous as the dawn
I have too many things
To lay my head on
Everything everything all at once
All my greedy eyes have wanted
I have it now

Has sugar lost her sweet
Oh good it's only me

Meet the Jordan of self loathing
Here I am buzzer beater
Bruising my own ego
Where did I go wrong
I was never right
The pressure rising higher
Than previously recorded
But there I was